finished with school.

kubrick has startled me,
startled, yes that is the word.
His concept is something that I've been writing about and searching for for over two years
without knowing him

yes, startled, that is the word.

Ora bisogna abbandonarsi e dormire più che si può. Dormire?...

Si crede sempre che sia il fondo dello squallore quello che si è toccato. Chissà se esistono delle forze per andare più giù. Delle strane forze, e la prossima volta scendere più in basso. C'è un momento in cui si è veramente soli. Quando si arriva in fondo a ciò che siamo di orrendo, di squallido. Ma in fondo, proprio in fondo in fondo. 

Il dolore stesso non vi risponde più. Gli occhi sono asciutti perché lí c'è il deserto. Strano, non cè neanche il dolore nella solitudine, quella vera. Gli occhi sono asciutti. E Allora bisogna risalire da quel fondo... piano piano bisogna ritornare tra gli uomini. Non c'è niente da fare. Bisogna ritornare con gli uomini... anche per piangere.

- Où allez-vous, jeunes gens, où allez-vous, étudiants, qui battez les rues, manifestant, jetant au milieu de nos discordes la bravoure et l'espoir de vos vingt ans ?
- Nous allons à l'humanité, à la vérité, à la justice !


Zola, Lettres a la jeunesse

society and its -isms

We are being brought up to live through the exact same fear. An entire generation is being lost in the hope that it will generate a new system for the generation above it. We are the inbetweeners.

I am going to university to learn about a system that is rotting down. That is rotting society and that will slowly decompose. I am living for something that is doomed. That we all now will be doomed. Everything will change. And me? I am just a bystander who is insignificant to history. It is a sad realization. Even more so, seeing that the responsible generation, in other words, the rulers of society, have no idea what to do about it. They are relying on time and other people to come up with some additional effort and brain cells.

I am a great follower. Just give me some good material and I will follow it, idealise it, and fight for it. This is how history has brought up its pathetic inhabitants. Today, there is this huge urge to make us feel like we have to produce the material, this by an entire generation of avid followers: great economists, politicians, intellectuals. The only innovators are the engineers in technology. Are they the new makers of tomorrow? Do they have the power to change society and erase society’s shameful memory stick?

Today the problem does not lie in human morals, tolerance. The bigger issue is to find a worldwide system that can supply each and everyone. There is an urge to change the financial system. This will inevitably trigger the political system. Capitalism has done but fuel the notions of materialism, consumerism, lazyness and passive agressivity through technology. Today we do not know what to do. Nobody does.

The world is in quest of the perfect modal of capitalism…

Is it though? Is it capitalism at all?

Finance is becoming sexy. Finance should be boring. There is a need for a new way of looking at the economy, a new way of dealing with the relationship between society and the economy. Instead of focussing on the -isms, one should maybe reconsider the values and needs of a society. Yet, the -ism part of it is crucial, as it provides a system, a bullet point structure for us humans.